Basic Training

My new life is: change Cree, feed Cree, burp Cree, comfort and hold Cree when she cries, kiss Cree, snap pictures of Cree, put her to sleep, REPEAT.

I feel like I'm two weeks into basic training where the first week was hell week and now the second week things are starting to slowly fall into place and like I might be starting to get the hang of this mom thing. I'm learning things like: make sure there is a diaper under her at all times in case she pees (or worse, yes it's happened) when you change her, my baby is picky and only likes me to use a certain brand of Lanolin for breastfeeding, it's really hard to burp a milk drunk baby, there are such things as blocked tear ducts and that breast milk will help the infection (according to a Kardashian's episode it helps with eczema too) (( don't judge my choice in TV shows, I judge myself)), my baby takes about 10 minutes to latch on because she wants to truly enjoy her meal and stare at mom while she eats, etc.

I never thought I'd love this 7 pound little person so much and it hurts my heart when she cries and I can't figure out how to make it better for her. No one really warns you about how hard it is to be a mom, well, maybe they tried but you don't really understand until your actually in the throws of things. I think God's been trying to teach me patience my whole life in preparation for motherhood and now even more so I'm continuing to learn since Cree was born.

While things are hard, I'm super thankful for some things that are pretty easy with her too such as: she's a good sleeper and let's me get about 7-8 hours of sleep a night (mind you this isn't consecutive hours of sleep, but I'll take it), my milk coming in quickly and keeping her well feed in addition to her only loosing 2 oz. before we left the hospital, when she smiles and makes baby pterodactyl noises which are pretty much the best things to see and hear, she doesn't mind when I place huge bows on her head, with the exception of today she doesn't need to be held constantly, we've gone on three outings already and she's slept the whole time, etc.

I don't think my training will ever end as a new mom and I'm excited to see what else I learn as she continues to grow. Fortunately I think the hardest part is over and it can only get more fun and easier from here on out (prayers are appreciated)